Well I literally got that handed to me.

If you've ever struggled with a similar stretch of time, I would love for you to share.

I left my apartment only for uni, and from July to December 2017, I think I socialised maybe five or six times, as I made only a small group of friends who each already lived in Melbourne and had their own friends.
In spite of all this dumb shit, I still felt relatively happy - I was still by all appearances healthy, and had an active social life.Forgive me if this is a bit rambled and all over the place, it feels like there's 100 different things I want to get off my chest and sometimes it all blends together hahaha. July 2017 is when I think what were mostly just bad habits became an actual health problem. I went to the cashpoint and the machine wouldn’t give me any cash. 164 + Follow - Unfollow 3px arm (Slim) Background I've Lost Control Again LightMyLife. thanked 14 times: Publié par elnur le Ven, 14/12/2018 - 15:57. I don't really need anyone to talk to, I just wanted to get this all off my chest. It all began on Saturday. 2015 all in all was a fine year, but the problems I struggle with now clearly began to emerge in '15.TL;DR: I have ZERO will-power and have been eating terribly, not leaving the house, and avoiding responsibility for 5 years and I am sick of living like this. I turned 18 and was going to the pubs, the clubs, having a fun time. But I spent it all.

I completely stopped seeing any other humans unless I was drunk. Over this time I slowly put on more weight, now at the point where I was a bit chubby and sickly pale.I had intended to get thin again by the start of 2019, but instead, and I am aware how absurd this sounds, my grandparents on my opposite side left me another 10k gift. As i'm sure many of you can relate to, being behind your peer group is a pretty solid demoraliser. I ask him why my ten grand went into the account.It’s summer and we should feel relaxed. I apologise for anyone that sticks around to the end because it will most likely be dull, but I just feel like getting this all written somewhere, and this seems like a good spot. I didn't pay my phone bill, which led to a cancelled service and a $350 bill, again paid off by my dad. Banda Nirvana Recital Donald Cobain Nirvana Kurt Cobain Dave Grohl Foo Fighters Post Punk Music Icon Celebs.

The second time this happened to me actually, first time I didn't catch on tape. Now, admissions for the university course I planned on attending were based on a creative portfolio, not on year 12 grades, and I was accepted to the course based on my portfolio. At this point the years spent mostly indoors had given me pretty crippling social anxiety, made so much worse by the fact that I no longer had the confidence in my appearance that I might have had in 2015/16. I could have saved even just half of it and I would have the upfront costs of my move covered. Why? None whatsoever. It simply means you are going through an incubation period and transformation.

But it happened. I missed the first day of my new course, and from that moment on I didn't go once. I started showing up to school at 10-11am, frequently missing the first class or two of the day. The first few months of 2016 were great.

I don't, I don't. July 2020. 50+ videos Play all Mix - Alan Walker ‒ Lost Control (Lyrics) ft. Sorana YouTube Ed Sheeran - Shape of You [Official Video] - Duration: 4:24. I only left the house to drink on Saturday nights. Towards the end of 2019 though, I lost 15 kilos (33lbs), mostly as a result of being too broke to afford junk food.


Immediately afterwards, my effort in school dropped to zero. Because my life is no longer mine to control.

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